LOVE FOR IMPERFECT THINGS: Zen teacher Haemin Sunim: A Buddhist monk's guide to mindfulness and resisting the urge to strive for perfectionism: True freedom is being without anxiety about imperfection. —Sixth-century Zen master Sengchan: I have met many good people who suffer from depression, panic attacks, and other emotional disorders due to difficult human relationships. Such people tend to be gentle, well mannered, and solicitous of others. They are the kind of self-sacrificing person who will habitually put other people’s wishes before their own. Why, I wondered, do such good people often fall victim to mental and emotional suffering? “Be good to yourself first, then to others.” It was like being struck by lightning. Up until then, I had only ever worried about what other people thought of me. I had never once thought properly about caring for myself, or loving myself. If someone always listens to me and follows my advice, naturally I like that person and think of him or her as a good person. It seems that “good” sometimes refers to a person who thinks too much of others to be able to express his or her own will. But the problem is that, by living in accordance with the demands of others, we unwittingly neglect our own desires and needs. If as a child you were indifferent to your own feelings, minimizing them or not considering them important, as an adult you will not be able to tell what it is you yourself want to do, or who you are as a person. And then when you encounter someone who treats you unfairly or makes things difficult for you, since you do not know how to properly express your own feelings, the anger that ought to be directed toward its instigator is trapped inside you and ends up attacking you instead. “Why am I such an idiot, that I can’t express my feelings properly, can’t even speak up honestly? Don’t worry that expressing yourself will cause the other person to dislike you and the relationship to become strained. If the other person knew how you really felt, she probably wouldn’t have made such demands of you.
Learn to express what you are feeling without agonizing over it. Does it make you feel frustrated to be the only one doing the work? If so, don’t just swallow the feeling; speak up: When someone asks for a favor, don’t forget that you have the option to say, “I’m terribly sorry, but I can’t do that.” You have no obligation to take on a task that will be a great burden on you. There is nothing selfish about looking after yourself first. Only if you are happy will you be able to make those around you happy. When you care for yourself first, the world will also find you worthy of care. Treat yourself to a delicious meal, a good book, a nice walk with a lovely view. As you would invest in the person you love, so you should invest in yourself. There is some part of you that is imperfect or broken, it can motivate you to work hard to overcome it, and can ultimately bring you success in life. It’s okay that you have flaws. How could our lives be as clean and white as a blank sheet of paper? Life naturally takes a toll on our bodies, our minds, and our relationships. Don’t judge people based on how they appear, as they may have difficulties that nobody can see. We don’t know what is going on inside of our friends, but we are well aware of what is going on inside ourselves. Have you ever felt a sense of inferiority because of a cousin who is doing better than you? None of us can know how our lives. The true winner is the one who is happy with his life.
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LOVE FOR IMPERFECT THINGS: Zen teacher Haemin Sunim: A Buddhist monk's guide to mindfulness and resisting the urge to strive for perfectionism: True freedom is being without anxiety about imperfection. —Sixth-century Zen master Sengchan: I have met many good people who suffer from depression, panic attacks, and other emotional disorders due to difficult human relationships. Such people tend to be gentle, well mannered, and solicitous of others. They are the kind of self-sacrificing person who will habitually put other people’s wishes before their own. Why, I wondered, do such good people often fall victim to mental and emotional suffering? “Be good to yourself first, then to others.” It was like being struck by lightning. Up until then, I had only ever worried about what other people thought of me. I had never once thought properly about caring for myself, or loving myself. If someone always listens to me and follows my advice, naturally I like that person and think of him or her as a good person. It seems that “good” sometimes refers to a person who thinks too much of others to be able to express his or her own will. But the problem is that, by living in accordance with the demands of others, we unwittingly neglect our own desires and needs. If as a child you were indifferent to your own feelings, minimizing them or not considering them important, as an adult you will not be able to tell what it is you yourself want to do, or who you are as a person. And then when you encounter someone who treats you unfairly or makes things difficult for you, since you do not know how to properly express your own feelings, the anger that ought to be directed toward its instigator is trapped inside you and ends up attacking you instead. “Why am I such an idiot, that I can’t express my feelings properly, can’t even speak up honestly? Don’t worry that expressing yourself will cause the other person to dislike you and the relationship to become strained. If the other person knew how you really felt, she probably wouldn’t have made such demands of you.
Learn to express what you are feeling without agonizing over it. Does it make you feel frustrated to be the only one doing the work? If so, don’t just swallow the feeling; speak up: When someone asks for a favor, don’t forget that you have the option to say, “I’m terribly sorry, but I can’t do that.” You have no obligation to take on a task that will be a great burden on you. There is nothing selfish about looking after yourself first. Only if you are happy will you be able to make those around you happy. When you care for yourself first, the world will also find you worthy of care. Treat yourself to a delicious meal, a good book, a nice walk with a lovely view. As you would invest in the person you love, so you should invest in yourself. There is some part of you that is imperfect or broken, it can motivate you to work hard to overcome it, and can ultimately bring you success in life. It’s okay that you have flaws. How could our lives be as clean and white as a blank sheet of paper? Life naturally takes a toll on our bodies, our minds, and our relationships. Don’t judge people based on how they appear, as they may have difficulties that nobody can see. We don’t know what is going on inside of our friends, but we are well aware of what is going on inside ourselves. Have you ever felt a sense of inferiority because of a cousin who is doing better than you? None of us can know how our lives. The true winner is the one who is happy with his life.
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